And My Tears Cry

I keep you here in my memory
But never shall you my body see.
My mind cries out to keep you away
But my heart only wants you to stay.
How can you do this to your lover?
What are you trying to cover?
Can't you just be truthful to me?
You hurt me; can't you see?
Why can't you let your past go?
You wanna speed ahead, though.
You can't have both, my friend.
If you keep your past, it's the end.
All the past brings is pain.
What is there by to gain?
I know I loved you forever,
But you could love me never.
To wrapped up to notice or see
At your side I'd always be.
You were all I ever wanted.
How could you keep me haunted?
All those painful memories,
All those horrid old stories,
Countless tears I have shed,
Just over what has been said.
My broken heart would mend,
But you wouldn't let it end.
You tested my undying love for you
By choosing me to belong to.
I could deny you absolutely nothing,
But no longer did I feel such a thing.
I needed a lover to keep me happy,
But when I told you, you got snappy.
I need someone who cares a lot,
But you were all I got.
I dreamed about you every night,
But now all we do is fight.
You were my everything before,
But now I show you the door.
Reconsider what you're feeling
And who with you're dealing.
Don't you wanna treat me better?
She'll overtake your life if you let her.
Don't go back to your old ways again;
Keep your dreams, desires where they've been.
I enjoy the attention you give.
Ignoring is what I can't forgive.
I know exactly what you want.
You were caught by her taunt.
I would have to become like her
If we were to continue as we were.
I know I can't be all you desire.
When you see me, you don't burn with fire.
Try to think of me with love;
Make me all you dream of.
If you can do it for her,
You can make me that offer.
Surprisingly, I can improve;
I need to you this prove.
It saddens me to think of this.
If you leave, 'tis you I'll miss.
I torture myself with many a song
So to you I can still belong.
I must find a common thread
When everything's been said
To continue like this as long as I can,
To keep you here as my man.
It's all I want, desire, and need
So I must follow your lead.
But I also want to think of me;
I want the chance to be happy.
But both for me, it can't be.
Either I have you, or I'm happy.
And I know how much you're in love with her
So I should make it as if we were.
It's sad how we've fallen apart,
Just how much you broke my heart.
But everything goes right in the end,
Even for you, my sweet friend.
You won't have me to push around.
You won't hear me make a sound.
Because I keep you here in my memory,
But never again shall you my body see.

No, I'm Not Like You

When times got tough you split
You spread your seed and deserted
Your violent temper disrupted the house
You left in your wake hurt and pain
No correspondence till you needed something
I am part of you; yet don't compare us
When you needed help, I lent a hand
When you needed food, I gave you things to eat
When you needed shelter, I invited you in
I call you dad, yet . . .
You didn't do those things for me